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[personal profile] hildico2010-09-11 12:47 am

OCD wrath

Yes, stepmom, the appropriate response to "I have OCD and intrusive thoughts" is to declare me a dangerous schizophrenic who should not be allowed in the house or near small animals or children.

You say you want to help me, but then when I tell you my CBT is going to be long and complicated and likely to make my anxiety worse before it gets better, you freak out and tell me I'm "not getting better fast enough". When I have a shitty day and need to hide in bed, you flip out and stamp on my ceiling or pound up and down the stairs for hours before finally slamming open my door and yelling at me. You claim you have "anxiety too", but show no compassion or patience for mine. You call my therapist wanting to put me in group homes for mentally low-functioning adults despite that being completely inappropriate for me. You tell me I don't tell you enough, but when I talk, you don't fucking listen.

Oh, and Dad? Grow some damn balls and stick up for me for once in my life.
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[personal profile] senusenu2010-09-04 01:31 am

Depression and anxiety crap. Again.

Monday I woke up at about 10:30 after going to bed at 5:30am. I had to stay up because of my graveyard shift Monday night and was sleeping through the day so I could stay awake that night. Within minutes of waking up, I started experiencing anxiety symptoms- having to work graveyard shift has really been fucking me up. It's completely thrown off my sleep schedule and now I can't sleep regularly or sleep when I lay down most nights without a sedative (I use diphenhydramine, which is the chemical in both Benedryl and Nytol because it's cheap and easy to get). I have used it for so long though that I become pretty resistant to it within a few days of repeated use.

So I went to get my Celexa from the pharmacy since I was out, and I took 3 of them to induce fairly quick calmness, when I normally take 2. As soon as I got home, I called my doctor. My symptoms were getting worse. Graveyard shift, and stress in general, is increasing my GAD on a day to day basis, and I've had two depressive meltdowns in the past couple of weeks.

When I got there, the nurse recorded an accelerated heart rate, and increased blood pressure. Physical, recordable symptoms of an anxiety attack. It was relieving in a way, to have proof it's not "just in my head" and that I'm not making it up or "being weak" or some other complete bullshit. I talked to the doctor for nearly an hour, going over my symptoms, my triggers, nightmares, and so on. She wants to refer me to a psych, but in the meantime, I'm now taking BuSpar in addition to Celexa, twice a day. I'm going back in three weeks for a review.

I am hoping that this helps. I just have to wait and see.
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[personal profile] senusenu2010-09-02 10:57 pm
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Your long lost maintainer IS alive.

Hello there, I'm sorry for my long absence. I'm glad to see y'all posting here even though I haven't been active and we don't have many members.

Feel free to make any suggestions for the community. I'm kinda new to being a maintainer and I might suck at it a bit (at least until I get the hang of it).

Stay well, and let's see if we can build up a little support network here.


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USA Prescription drug assistance: x-posted


The National MS Society website: http://www.nationalmssociety.org/index.aspx. Search for "Finding Lower-Priced Prescription Drugs" or "medication assistance" to find information on various assistance programs.

The Partnership for Prescription Assistance (PPA): Funded by American pharmaceutical research companies, PPA helps qualifying patients without prescription drug coverage get the medicines they need for free or nearly free. Offering a single point of access to more than 475 public and private programs, including nearly 200 offered by pharmaceutical companies, several specific to persons with MS and MS medications; PPA works to increase awareness of patient assistance programs and boost enrollment of those who are eligible.

website: www.pparx.org
phone: 1-888-4PPA-NOW

You can also get to PPA through the http://www.phrma.org/about_phrma website for The Pharmaceutical Research and Manufacturers of America (PhRMA), representing the country’s leading pharmaceutical research and biotechnology companies. Click on "Patient Assistance Programs"


National Organization for Rare Disorders (NORD): Established in 1983, NORD is a non-profit, voluntary health agency that exists to serve persons with rare diseases, including MS. NORD has a section regarding mediction: http://www.rarediseases.org/programs/medication


Needy Meds: NeedyMeds is also a non-profit organization that was founded in 1997 by Richard Sagall, MD, and Libby Overly, MSW, as a resource of information about patient assistance programs (PAPs). Their website is: www.needymeds.org

anyone still here?

Hi there, I've recently joined DW and I'm looking for friends, community, ... Are there still folks active here in this community, it seems awfully quiet as of late.
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[personal profile] kitrona2009-12-16 11:54 pm

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I am having trouble. I got a referral from my primary doctor to go to a pain clinic, but my insurance doesn't have anyone within 30 miles of me, so they said they'd approve someone outside the network. But I've called probably 7 or 8 different places (some of them more than once when I got transferred around) and the places I've found either a. don't accept outpatients (inpatient only - hospitals) or b. refuse to even consider taking the approval from my insurance.

I don't know what to do, and with the weather changing, I'm in a lot more pain than usual. Does anyone have any ideas?

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[personal profile] luludi2009-06-01 11:11 am

Please lend me your voices...

Hello. I am posting to ask for your help. I am not myself physically disabled. I am writing a paper regarding the use of service animals for autism, depression, and other psychiatric or psychological conditions. I would very much like to hear some perspectives from the group (positive or negative) because I would like to include that voice in my paper.

Recently, the Depression and Bi-Polar Support Alliance has asked the Department of Justice to review the language of the Americans with Disabilities Act regarding the use of service animals for psychiatric conditions (link: http://www.dbsalliance.org/site/PageServer?pagename=advocacy_081408_dog). I think this is an important issue because, while I am not disabled, I do suffer from a condition that causes chronic pain which can also lead to depression.

I would be very grateful for anything you have to offer on the subject, and I am particularly interested in your reaction as a physically disabled person to the use of service animals for psychiatric conditions, as well as the connection between a person's psychological health in relation to their physical disabilities. While I am in support of service animals being used for this purpose, I am also particularly interested in the opinions of the physically disabled to legislation being expanded to provide the same rights and protections for the psychologically disabled or impaired. I have done a great deal of research regarding the human-animal bond and the positive differences animals can make in the lives of all people. I am also interested in hearing from those who do use service animals for a physical disability and whether they feel the animal helps them in an emotional or psychological capacity as well. I would imagine, for instance, that a blind person who uses a dog as their "sight" would build a great deal of trust and love for the animal which is with them on a daily basis and affords them a freedom they might not otherwise enjoy. In addition, I would also be very interested in hearing from those who have psychological or psychiatric conditions and their opinions on whether animals provide a beneficial element in their lives. I would be very appreciative of any feedback, suggestions, critiques or opinions you have on the issue, as well as anything which you think I may be overlooking in terms of this issue. Once the paper is more formed, I would be happy to share it with everyone if you would like.

Thank you very much for taking the time to review this post, and in advance for anything you would like to add.

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[personal profile] senusenu2009-05-04 08:36 pm

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Hello everyone, welcome to the community. Feel free to post or make suggestions!