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Went to the fancy part of town...
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chicatingto buy some chocolate for the holidays.. think maybe we were both looking for something we didn't find, but we got samples and a nice ride through rich people's neighborhoods.
Watching Aftyn Behn "almost win" reminds me too much of my own life, really, except nobody is gonna tell her she's "So Brave" probably.But, you know, I'm a longshot, too.(one that, as of this writing, has not come into very much.(Also, the real, well, I hesitate to call it fun, but, okay, something beneath that, pleasure, maybe, of a long-shot campaign is doing what you can while not taking it seriously, cause, like, "What the hell?" Saying what you want(within reason) not sweating the polling...that kind of stuff.
Having her come so close with everyone watching is kind of the worst of all possible worlds.I'm an activist, not a fricking Cubs fan..."Wait Till Next Year" doesn't get it done for me anymore...after about fourteen years, I'm thinking of leaving the phone team behind, but my own life isn't compelling either, or I never would have flung myself in so hard in the first place. But I haven't had a good round of calls in forever.
Still looking for that dare-to-be-great situation, I guess.
Watching Aftyn Behn "almost win" reminds me too much of my own life, really, except nobody is gonna tell her she's "So Brave" probably.But, you know, I'm a longshot, too.(one that, as of this writing, has not come into very much.(Also, the real, well, I hesitate to call it fun, but, okay, something beneath that, pleasure, maybe, of a long-shot campaign is doing what you can while not taking it seriously, cause, like, "What the hell?" Saying what you want(within reason) not sweating the polling...that kind of stuff.
Having her come so close with everyone watching is kind of the worst of all possible worlds.I'm an activist, not a fricking Cubs fan..."Wait Till Next Year" doesn't get it done for me anymore...after about fourteen years, I'm thinking of leaving the phone team behind, but my own life isn't compelling either, or I never would have flung myself in so hard in the first place. But I haven't had a good round of calls in forever.
Still looking for that dare-to-be-great situation, I guess.
Death of the (Indie) Author
Nov. 4th, 2025 02:03 ambedesWhilst I very much align with the idea of "art is about your personal experiences with it and your own interpretation", I do understand how some artists (especially indie artists) may begin to demand that nobody else interpret their art in any other way than the intended vision.
Creation of art is a deeply personal process. So to see others saying that the artist's intent doesn’t really matter can feel very disrespectful. It can feel like their art is being taken from them, while leaving the artist themself out of the picture. As if their art is a piece of content, and while everyone loves the art, nobody cares to consider the person who made it.
I don’t think this point of view is correct at all, but I can understand why it's so common with artists. I think that more artists should view others interpreting their art in a way personal to them as a way that art is successful, rather than a failure at the supposed objective of “making others understand my intention”.
Creation of art is a deeply personal process. So to see others saying that the artist's intent doesn’t really matter can feel very disrespectful. It can feel like their art is being taken from them, while leaving the artist themself out of the picture. As if their art is a piece of content, and while everyone loves the art, nobody cares to consider the person who made it.
I don’t think this point of view is correct at all, but I can understand why it's so common with artists. I think that more artists should view others interpreting their art in a way personal to them as a way that art is successful, rather than a failure at the supposed objective of “making others understand my intention”.
"A Berdly"
Oct. 29th, 2025 05:48 pmbedesIt's funny that "a Berdly" is now used colloquially to mean "a character who is obnoxious in a funny/silly way, used affectionately", because for those first few weeks after Chapter 2 released, the vast majority of people were saying Berdly was transphobic and lesbophobic and killed their grandmas. The Weird Route’s discovery did insane PR work for him. Crazy what almost dying can do for an autist!
Silent Salt IS a Beast
Oct. 31st, 2025 12:01 ambedesI looove that Silent Salt isn’t able to see White Lily as separate from Dark Enchantress. It reinforces the flaws that were already established previously, via his treatment of the Virtues.
His beastly traits are that he is ruthlessly unforgiving, and that he dehumanizes others. Silent Salt sees others as their duties and their duties alone — their struggles do not matter.
His beastly traits are that he is ruthlessly unforgiving, and that he dehumanizes others. Silent Salt sees others as their duties and their duties alone — their struggles do not matter.
Hi
Dec. 1st, 2025 11:39 pmfennectikFirst of all, happy belated Thanksgiving to all reading this, I've been very busy to even bother blogging, but I made time to do so today.
I had the weirdest thing going on with Google's Gemini AI, in particular when it kept getting the wrong lyrics for a song I was trying to find the name of, insisting it was that one, and even getting the year wrong of the song *I* was asking about. When I inquired what was going on, said AI stated it "panicked," so it would just sputter stuff to appease me. That got me staring at the screen for a while. An AI gets panicked? I inquired an explanation about it, which Gemini apologized stating as an AI, it cannot have feelings of any sort, and it simply kept making errors on its part.
This isn't the only time something like this has happened, some days ago, when I was becoming aggravated about that thing generating the wrong info, it actually stated that I should seek professional help, something an AI as far as I know, shouldn't tell a user.
I asked to give me an input on what to do when it starts acting up, which it generated prompts I can ask it to do such as make a re-research on a topic it keeps getting wrong, and rebooting itself which according to what it told me, will refresh its algorithm or something.
Weird.
I also been watching lots of anime, including Pluto, a spin off from an Astroboy story arc from the legendary Osamu Tezuka, which is an adaptation of the manga with the same title. I highly recommend it.
Been also playing lots of games as well, including Parasite Eve which I have reached its second disc, and Metroid Fusion, where I'm currently stuck somewhere. I also had started Zelda II, The Adventure of Link, which makes me wish it could have its own remake, and Castlevania: Dawn of Sorrow. I am still trying to finish Lunar Eternal Blue Complete as well.
Health-wise, my mental state is getting tolerable. Been stomping the hell out of OCD, and will continue stopping it from ruining my life any further. Been able to draw my feelings and frustrations on my sketchbook as well.
That will be it for now.
I had the weirdest thing going on with Google's Gemini AI, in particular when it kept getting the wrong lyrics for a song I was trying to find the name of, insisting it was that one, and even getting the year wrong of the song *I* was asking about. When I inquired what was going on, said AI stated it "panicked," so it would just sputter stuff to appease me. That got me staring at the screen for a while. An AI gets panicked? I inquired an explanation about it, which Gemini apologized stating as an AI, it cannot have feelings of any sort, and it simply kept making errors on its part.
This isn't the only time something like this has happened, some days ago, when I was becoming aggravated about that thing generating the wrong info, it actually stated that I should seek professional help, something an AI as far as I know, shouldn't tell a user.
I asked to give me an input on what to do when it starts acting up, which it generated prompts I can ask it to do such as make a re-research on a topic it keeps getting wrong, and rebooting itself which according to what it told me, will refresh its algorithm or something.
Weird.
I also been watching lots of anime, including Pluto, a spin off from an Astroboy story arc from the legendary Osamu Tezuka, which is an adaptation of the manga with the same title. I highly recommend it.
Been also playing lots of games as well, including Parasite Eve which I have reached its second disc, and Metroid Fusion, where I'm currently stuck somewhere. I also had started Zelda II, The Adventure of Link, which makes me wish it could have its own remake, and Castlevania: Dawn of Sorrow. I am still trying to finish Lunar Eternal Blue Complete as well.
Health-wise, my mental state is getting tolerable. Been stomping the hell out of OCD, and will continue stopping it from ruining my life any further. Been able to draw my feelings and frustrations on my sketchbook as well.
That will be it for now.
Friday Five...
Nov. 21st, 2025 01:24 pmchicatingWhat's your favourite TV network? Over the years, I've liked a few...now it seems like nobody has a unique style anymore.
2. If you could create your own channel, what would it be? arts, culture, some left-wing politics, maybe I'd bring the dramedy back...I still like them-- maybe I'm not alone!
3. What TV show did you watch as a child, that you wish they would bring back?Not that I really want *actual MASH* back, though America had lots of feelings about its involvement in KoreaitNam, but I would like to see a show with as varied an emotional template and room for character growth as MASH. Something funny, but less like "Well, they loved that, so let's do it twenty more times," Something that trusts us to figure stuff out a few times(Anti-war messaging and Very Special Episodes optional.)
4. What show have you always hated, and wonder why they ever made such a dumb show? I grew up in the 1980s, which gave me an unmatched opportunity to see the good, really bad, and indifferent from, practically the beginning of the form(thanks to cable-- I'm not a spirit that sits around watching TV or anything...years ago, I might have had more passion about that. But I will say, we might not be here now without "The Apprentice." #DeportMarkBurnett(I've had a lot of streaming access this year, for the first time, and I'm not sure if it makes me feel better or worse how hard it can be to tell "cult favorite" and "Swing and a miss," apart.
5. What TV show's seasons would you buy on DVD? I would have loved it if the reason I got such a great price on West Wing DVDs wasn't because Amazon either let half of them get scratched up or knew they would be. Maybe I should have gotten a *really* great "Take Your Chances" price. Anyway, never finished that rewatch...
2. If you could create your own channel, what would it be? arts, culture, some left-wing politics, maybe I'd bring the dramedy back...I still like them-- maybe I'm not alone!
3. What TV show did you watch as a child, that you wish they would bring back?Not that I really want *actual MASH* back, though America had lots of feelings about its involvement in KoreaitNam, but I would like to see a show with as varied an emotional template and room for character growth as MASH. Something funny, but less like "Well, they loved that, so let's do it twenty more times," Something that trusts us to figure stuff out a few times(Anti-war messaging and Very Special Episodes optional.)
4. What show have you always hated, and wonder why they ever made such a dumb show? I grew up in the 1980s, which gave me an unmatched opportunity to see the good, really bad, and indifferent from, practically the beginning of the form(thanks to cable-- I'm not a spirit that sits around watching TV or anything...years ago, I might have had more passion about that. But I will say, we might not be here now without "The Apprentice." #DeportMarkBurnett(I've had a lot of streaming access this year, for the first time, and I'm not sure if it makes me feel better or worse how hard it can be to tell "cult favorite" and "Swing and a miss," apart.
5. What TV show's seasons would you buy on DVD? I would have loved it if the reason I got such a great price on West Wing DVDs wasn't because Amazon either let half of them get scratched up or knew they would be. Maybe I should have gotten a *really* great "Take Your Chances" price. Anyway, never finished that rewatch...
I don't know what I'll dream about now...
Nov. 21st, 2025 11:37 amchicatingwhich is just one of my 99 problems, but I re-watched "Morning Glory" last night--it's a cute comedy about a morning chat show, and when I watched it the first time, in say, 2011, I was so jealous of Rachel McAdams' producer character with the job that consumes her life(I have a media degree, so it wasn't *completely* nuts to imagine a sort of AU where that was my Hamiltonian "shot", even though in real life, I never really got that close. You know?)
Working that much doesn't look that good to me now--it's good to know I can get over things; I've clung onto so much.
But I don't know what it would look like if any of my current dreams came true, since I'm not quite at "Wouldn't change a thing," either, obviously.Even if that would make people closer to me happier than it would make me.
Sort of wish I had what one of my more...unreconstructed hippie mentors used to call a "heart's desire" but I guess it could be worse than being confused...I could be tearing myself up wanting a baby, on the corner of Never Likely, and Too Late Now(one of the intersections where Phoenix really does have superior wheelchair access, if you go by my life experience, sadly) and that would hurt more than this. Probably.
Working that much doesn't look that good to me now--it's good to know I can get over things; I've clung onto so much.
But I don't know what it would look like if any of my current dreams came true, since I'm not quite at "Wouldn't change a thing," either, obviously.Even if that would make people closer to me happier than it would make me.
Sort of wish I had what one of my more...unreconstructed hippie mentors used to call a "heart's desire" but I guess it could be worse than being confused...I could be tearing myself up wanting a baby, on the corner of Never Likely, and Too Late Now(one of the intersections where Phoenix really does have superior wheelchair access, if you go by my life experience, sadly) and that would hurt more than this. Probably.