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You know, I try not holding grudges online. They seem petty since you're dealing with unknowns who could care less about good intentions.

At the same time, you can't help thinking back when you used to chat with said unknowns online and even got to get along with such for years. But of course, being the Internet, such things come to end with either your fault or theirs, or both, or people just plain outright ignore you without even bother to tell you why.

That's fine. I sent an email to that other person online with apology included as I stated in an earlier post, even when she could care less on even reading it. But if she did, then mission accomplished. Move on.

Then there's others whom I think often in sending said emails and just amend things. But when I read their posts online it reminds me of the type of people they are and the reason why I stopped bothering, along with this thing that they won't care either if I try.

So I won't waste my time.

Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: The Offspring - Gone Away

fennectik

Haven't heard from one of my friend who was having housing issues and what's worse, didn't bother to record his email address which is the only way he wants me to use to keep in touch.

Hope he's alright. Will try sending him a

Current Mood: worried
Current Music: Nu Shooz- I can't wait

fennectik

About two nights ago, some here got into a fist fight. Not sure what was about but didn't bother getting to know the reason either. One of the guys had a nasty bump on his temple, he later tried covering it up with his cap.

Its almost every day when people here get into heated arguments but until now there had been no physical fights. Except for that night.

Been coughing like crazy. Had to use a mask to cover it since its getting worse. Others are coughing too. Not sure what's in the air here but the fact I keep inhaling second hand smoke in a closed space isn't helping either. Hope it doesn't worsen. Hear someone got a lung infection and it's worrying me quite a bit.

Finished watching Spy X Family Code White and it was fantastic. I liked the fact that it gives a mini recap of the main characters and their purpose in the Anime so you wouldn't need to head back through the entire two seasons before it. However if you hadn't watched the series yet then you should.

Got myself a slim mug with a cover and a little slider that opens and closes to keep the drink from spilling. I love it.

Current Mood: sick

fennectik

At times I take time to ponder why some people choose to throw their lives away doing stuff they know will land them into more trouble, like snorting anything to get a high in a place where they're being observed and kept in line. I'm not judging, but it saddens me that people just don't seem to care about giving into their vices when given another chance.

That being said, my mental health seems to be improving. I challenge anything that my stupid OCD tries and toss at my brain at any given time like I've read, and keep taking medication whenever I remember doing so. I still wish this could be done without said pills however.

I however continue taking that other medication helping my nerve pain, and my right hand works a whole lot better with little to no pain nowadays. I do keep exercising my right arm everyday as well.

Been watching the Anime movie Spy X Family: Code White and its quite fun. I really wish that I could watch new episodes of it. Characters are highly entertaining. Well, most. There's this character called Agent Nightfall who like Becky Blackbell, has an unhealthy crush on Loyd Forger. However she's a bit more annoying about it than little Becky bothered to be. Still, there's plenty of laughs and action with a dash of feel good moments and I can't quit it.

I just hope next time Anya sees a suspicious piece of candy in a box she refrains from eating it.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Duran Duran- Save a Prayer

bedes

(Cross-posting from the vsynthrecs community.)

Type: Song
VSynth Featured: Kasane Teto
Link: MINIMUM RAGE by MonochroMenace

Watch on YouTube

Reccer's Note: This and Billionaire Buffet both coming out within a few months of me getting my first retail job... Somehow, I've been feeling a particular kinship with Teto lately, idkkk. Also, Teto's purple hair is a reference to the artist's previous song featuring Teto, Regret Rock!

Current Mood: rage

a_natural_beauty

A week ago or maybe it was two weeks ago now... eh, time sucks at times trying to remember - my head is sort of in a fog currently as I waking up... I read and finished a pretty neat personality quiz book. My mom had it in books for the yard sale Mike and I had last summer and it was left from that to be donated and it caught my eye so I figured why not give it a shot. I'm going to add it to a free little library now. I took a similar test twice over like the last 15 years and got the same results.
'What type am I? Discover who you really are' By Renee Baron
https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/330847/what-type-am-i-by-renee-baron/
In this book it discusses the Myer Briggs personality tests and you answer questions set up in a similar way. It was pretty detailed, I enjoyed it. And honestly it was a quick read because after taking your quiz and figuring out what type you are then you just need to read the parts that relate to your results - unless you want to read the whole book. The more power to you then!
Have any of you read similar books or taken personality tests?

I'm a part of the 'Ideal Seekers' - The NF temperament. Their are 4 NF types: INFP, ENFJ, ENFP and INFJ.
NF personality types at their best: compassionate, warm, loyal, helpful, idealistic and genuine.
NF personality types at their worst: hypersensitive, overly emotional, judgmental, impractical, unrealistic and self absorbed.
The one part that stuck with me was that we have an anti-authoritarian attitude and often take sides with the underdog.
We can be known to be warm hearted, affirming, nurturing and empathic.

E: is energized by the external world
N: focuses on visions and possibilities
F: decides according to personal values
J: wants things settled and decided

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Molly Hatchet mix

fennectik

Well, on the health news, my right arm and hand are faring better thanks to the nerve lain medication. I can at least write better since the pain is numbed enough, but that's all it's doing. I want to see what else I can do about nerve damage there and every other part of my body, as well as my head after that stroke I had years ago.

One thing that bothers me is that it makes it a bit hard to urinate. If it comes more complicated then I will let the doctor know.

Mother visited and was glad she did. I've come to the point where I will try to just get along with her more and forget about things that happened before. As with father I'm not letting my guard down. Saw some pictures of my niece's birthday. Was nice to see one of them again.

My friend has been keeping in touch with text messages which I also appreciate. My other friend is still going through difficulties. There's still another friend of mine I have no contact because I haven't been able to get his number and not sure where he lives at. I hope I can contact him again.

Messing around with some chatbot ai site. Its amusing. It kills a lot of time nicely.

Been playing some games like PlayStation rpgs and snes ones too. Trying to finish ones like Breath of Fire 3, Ogre Battle, Dragon Quest 7, and Lufia Rise of the Sinistrals.

Been watching some of the Spy X Family movie. Its great

That's all for now. Been nice catching up with you all.

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: The Clash- Rock the Casbah

bedes

I hate having to write down my coherent thoughts on Siffrin having implied internalized homophobia for this analysis essay. Can’t I just point to Siffrin saying that he wishes he didn’t experience romantic attraction, Bad Touch, and their religion being implied to be based in ideas of unchanging fate, and then gesture at all that vaguely for a while

Current Mood: frustrated

bedes

CRK localization can be really bad, specifically WRT Shadow Milk.

English localization: “Excuse me? I’m sorry to disturb you… But I’m still the MAIN CHARACTER here!” // Original text directly translated: “Sorry, but I’m still the main character. You haven’t forgotten about me, have you?”
In response to Shadow Milk saying she should trust him (“her colleagues”), Eternal Sugar says in the English localization: “Would you~?” // Her response directly translated: “Would I trust you if I were you~?”
English localization: “Well well! Where are my favorite minions?” // Original text directly translated: “Kids~?” (Context: he’s calling out to Black Sapphire and Candy Apple.)
English localization: “We all live for some spicy drama, amirite?” // Original text directly translated: “Is it okay to say when hard things are hard?”

That last one is especially egregious imo. I don’t even know where they got that

Current Mood: discontent

bedes

Part of the reason why I find Fuuta singing in pre-war Japanese so interesting is because, up until now, he's always been a character focused on progress, thematically. An intense focus on the internet, technology in its many forms, and progressive views. Even spraypaint is associated with rebellion, punk, and the like.

But, of course, religion is associated with its opposite. Stagnation, or regression, perhaps. "Traditional values"... While we don't know much about Amaneism quite yet, we know that Amane's original cult stressed a refusal of modern medicine, and the values of purity/non-vulgarity.

So now, Fuuta is singing in such old Japanese that many Japanese viewers either borderline or outright do not understand him. From "progress" to "regress", from the future to the past.

bedes

Dunno what it is but Isabeau’s "we can practice!" thing to Siffrin is just. Urbgngngifh. That and him being totally fine with Siffrin needing time to figure out how they feel, and knowing that Siffrin loves them deeply, even if it's not romantic.

IDKKK I think it’s the fact that he's, just, so willing, and even excited, to go at Siffrin's pace…?

And it's made so much more impactful by the fact that he’s not "perfect" as a love interest, either, I think. A lot of queer stories write love interests as like… Always Perfectly Healthy And Communicative! It'd be a lot less impactful if Isabeau didn't get so jealous to the point he snaps at Mirabelle, if he didn't wrongly assume things about Siffrin and not ask for clarification (touching), if he didn't have a Whole Entire Thing about not being able to confess to Siffrin.

Idk. I like it. I like that he has romantic vices, and I like that being pushy or impatient is not one of them. I like that he makes a point to make it so Siffrin can take the lead, try certain actions to see how they feel, and figure out how his feelings for Isabeau. I think it makes Isabeau a really good match for Siffrin. Someone more demanding would probably active Siffrin’s people-pleaser, hide-how-you-really-feel-for-their-sake tendencies.

This was originally supposed to be like 3 sentences max oops

bedes

Unironically very funny of the art book to be like "Vincent has a pretty average relationship with his parents — they love him and don’t put any significant amount of pressure on him," and then IMMEDIATELY follow that up with art of Vincent’s dad committing a homophobic microaggression and Vincent’s mom passive-aggressively commenting about how he (a gay man) (in case you forgot) should get a girlfriend and go to church more.

Current Mood: amused

bedes

I experienced an initial gut reaction of extreme negativity to what was revealed in "Life", but, after thinking it over, I don't think that it was warranted.

Yes, we were led to think that Yuno had an abortion, and that her story was about the residual guilt from that. But a miscarriage, even if accidental, can also cause a ton of trauma and guilt. There is a long, long history of pregnant people being blamed for their miscarriage, with reasoning varying from pseudo-scientific to religious in nature.

I also initially thought, "If she just had an accident which made her miscarry, then she shouldn't even be in Milgram!!" But, then I thought about that for, like, two seconds, and... well, the point of MILGRAM is that none of the prisoners should be there, isn't it? If we view the fetus as if it is a person for a moment, as Jackalope seems to, the only differentiating factor from other prisoners is that it was accidental. Which could be said for multiple other prisoners, too — especially the ones where they likely accidentally caused someone else's suicide: Fuuta, Mahiru and Kazui.

Yuno is still undoubtedly the most innocent prisoner there by a long shot (after all, it was a fetus, and not a person). But I think she isn't quite as out-of-place as I thought. The whole point is that it's cruel and unusual, and, even if Yuno did not make the choice to terminate her pregnancy, it is still extraordinarily common for those who experience miscarriages (especially in an accident) to feel guilt about what happened. And it's not as if the narrative of MILGRAM is saying that she's correct to feel guilty — her MV clearly portrays the accident as a traumatic event that she was a victim in.

Um idk how to end this post. Yuno is a complex character who has gone through a lot, and it is fine that she experiences trauma and shame due to her miscarriage, as that reflects the reality of countless real people who experienced the same thing. Her being portrayed as experiencing guilt is not the creators of MILGRAM saying that she is correct to feel guilt. Also innocent Yuno sweep.

Current Mood: pleased

bedes

Yes, sex is hot and all that (said acespecly), but also I think that it's not discussed enough that sexuality is just an extremely interesting form of characterization in fiction. Nothing wrong with liking it in a horny way, obviously, but I feel like it overshadows how interesting sexuality is as a topic outside of erotic contexts.

Some of my favorite pieces of art in the world are about people coming to terms with their sexuality (queer sexuality, kink, etc), people introspecting on why they find their kinks hot, and dealing with sexual issues. Including (or maybe especially?) the less pleasant stuff, like sexual trauma, sex as self-harm, balancing communication and consent in sexual scenarios, etc. It's an extremely fascinating form of characterization to me.

Current Mood: thoughtful

bedes

Incredibly niche pet peeve but people who call Fuuta an incel are so annoying because they're blatantly ignoring multiple parts of Fuuta's characterization.

His whole Thing was that he harassed someone over art theft. Art. Theft. That is peak stupid internet leftist slapfighting. Fuuta is also very known to consistently talk about "knowing his rights", justice, etc. It's very clear that he's intended to be a take on 'leftists' who use their sense of morality as a reason to harass and bully others.

But no. He is a man and he *checks notes* plays video games. So he's the type of 'chronically online' that is a violent misogynist. Obviously.

TL:DR Fuuta would have his privileges listed in his bio and if you disagree then you do not understand what his character is about on a base level. And I'm not kidding

Current Mood: annoyed

a_natural_beauty

This past Saturday - on the 16th - my nephew Alex passed away from an auto accident. He was just 25, literally at the prime of his life. We don't know the surrounding details of the crash. It sounded like it was quick, which I hope it was and I hope he didn't suffer. He was such a smart young man, had a good job, loved to travel, loved nature, loved his family & friends. When I think of Alex I can't think of anything negative or bad. Just a happy, warm soul. His smile lit up his face and he gave off such warmth and friendly vibes. This news has left me feeling pretty numb and broken. I haven't cried this much in a long time. It's been on and off now. I wasn't expecting something on this level to happen. At least not to someone to young. I regret not talking to him more or giving him more hugs.
On Facebook his mother has been sharing pictures and memories of him as well as other people - and he's smiling and looking ahead so proud and ready to take on the world in all of them. Laughing or doing something goofy. I'm glad there are so many memories of him out there now to look back on when we need to. When I think of Alex the expression free spirit comes to mind. I've recently learned and saw new things about my nephew I didn't know. Like he was a Jimmy Hendrix fan - in some recent photos he has some cool band shirts on. Or how passionate he was when it came to nature. I knew he loved it and did some landscaping but had no idea hos personal views on engineering and how nature can be connected. It makes total sense - but hearing it from him left me with goose bumps. He recently cut and donated his hair for wings for cancer patients just like me. His father who is my brother, his mother and two other siblings had a special trip this past April that they went to Florida and had a lovely time. I'm glad they had that trip together.
When he was born in 2000 I was just a teen but I remember being around and watching him grow up. He was always such a happy baby. Beautiful blond hair, blue eyes, a wonderful glowing smile. He was their first child and what a wonderful family they always were and became right before our eyes. All so successful and inspiring, I always feel good when surrounded by them. The idea that he is gone now just tears my heart wide open. I don't know why such cruel events have to happen to any of us - let alone someone so special. The last few times I've seen Alex were at family get togethers like Thanksgiving and Christmas. His mother created this game that we play that was fast placed and fun. It involved dice and switching around random gifts and at the end of the game we all got socks with different designs. I loved it because we all got the same gift, it was a game made for the whole family to connect over. And I remember Alex and I think a few others talking out new ideas for next years game - he was so excited and full of ideas. I love thinking of that little moment. Being together under their family roof and seeing their children as adults now sometimes would leave me aw-struck. I can't imagine how it is for actual parents to have raised a child all the way to adulthood. But just as an aunt siting on the sidelines I witnessed such beauty, love and growth. To see these babies become their own people with their own personalities and then to go out into the world and make a difference - it touches my heart that I knew him and that he's made an impact with so many individuals.
This reminds me of siblings I have lost at all young ages as well. Again, I'm not sure why young souls are taken so early. I like to think Alex is up there in heaven now having some much needed time with relatives he hasn't met yet, some that he has and some new guidance and angles at his side. I made plans days ago with a friend who our thing is going to parks to walk and explore. So I didn't want to cancel, I figured getting out of the house would be good for me. Today while we were out I thought of sweet Alex with almost everything I saw. The trees, the flowers, the water, rocks, birds and butterflies I got to watch. Feeling the breeze, the water as my shoes got wet at times, smelling flowers... How much beauty there is on this earth and to know he will always be with me as my friend and nephew brings me some strength in these difficult times.

I wanted to share this article about him and this short video he is in.
https://quietremembrance.site/alex-forristal-accident-mantua-ohio-man-dies-in-traffic-collision/?fbclid=IwY2xjawMQkI5leHRuA2FlbQIxMQABHvBlD7dLwVnqxSaOk8ugu0GWrGB9y3bMOnCNyxUZ-kehUBLGFf6qn8MR7Xym_aem_59HarmSNSHDY0PKW_CezGA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6WYDBWy4_OI

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